Hmm can I even catch up!

Lets start with Disneyland. Have you ever gone on a vacation and realized you spent way tooo much money and it probably wasn't the smartest thing to do. To come home with an almost empty bank account. Bills? we have to pay them?? jk.. yeah that was us. Not too smart but we did have a lot of fun!! I couldn't eat enough cotton candy! I made myself sick going from eating healthy to fast food for every meal and drinking enough coke to swim in it.. Here are some of my favorite pics.

At Disneyland our family was able to go on most of the rides together. Parker even went on space mountain. Poor boy. During the ride I felt so bad for him. Afterwards he cried. The other kiddos loved it of course. The kids loved the tea cups. One time was enough for me but they went on and on again.

I can't figure out why my blog isn't uploading the pics like it use to. I need some serious help!! This is why I haven't blogged in forever. i guess I will have to blog without pics and add them later because life is passing me by and my memory is horrible!

what i've been up to!

What I need to blog about:
Football! Jace has been playing awesome and it's been so much fun watching him.
My new love... RPM which is a cycling class at the gym. My legs are looking sooo good!
Trip to California.. Disneyland, Newport and getting lost in down town LA. and me throwing up a little in the car.
Doing a lot of self reflecting and trying to figure some stuff out.
I love Chandler!
I love my sisters. They live to far away!
Spent time with my dad last night. yummy food and a movie. Chandler is at an over night scout campout and the kids were at a Halloween sleepover at granma's and papa's.
Hayley performed at the state fair and did awesome!
Kind of finally getting setteling in.
Love friends.
Thats it for now. :)

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Need to blog.... don't want to.. maybe soon!

Happy Birthday Parker baby boo!

Okay so he is not a baby anymore.
But he will always be my little guy. I have never had a kid that wanted to grow up so much! Maybe it's because he is the youngest and wants to do everything his older brothers and sister do. Parker is having so much fun in preschool. He would go everyday if he could. (he goes 3 days) He is still a cuddeler and i love it! When I fix his hair he tells me he wants a mohawk! He knew his birthday was coming up and kept asking us how many more night times. When is was his birthday September 1st he kept jumping up and down and throwing his arms out saying it's my birthday it's my birthday! He really enjoyed his day. He got a new foot ball, sponge bob dominos and of course some new battery operated trains. He will get a new bike when it cools down. It is still to hot to ride outside so i didn't want to get him a bike and have it sit in the garage. It would be torture. He wanted a thomas the tank engine birthday cake. He didn't let us finish singing happy birthday before he blew out the candels. What can I say. I love this little guy!

Somethings gotta change

I'm so up and down these days. But I am having more ups than downs. Something that I'm very happy about is I feel like being creative again. If you know me this is huge for me. I love to make things anything you can be creative at. I just made some beautiful new necklaces to put on my business blog. I need to get some pics taken and also make a couple of new pairs of flips flops. Then some business cards and put some vinyl back on my car. At least I can cut out my own vinyl now since i have a cricut machine to do it. So i'm excited and I hope i can get business just using my blog. We will see i guess. That is why i'm only going to put a few things on there to see if I get any response.
I do miss exercising and have to wear my boot four more weeks. That makes me sooo sad. I miss going to the gym and have dreamed that I was taking step class. I just want to cycle really bad but i'm sure i will have to ease back into it. I have some physical therapy i'm going to have to do at home. My foot is so jacked up and feels very strange at times. My nerves are acting strange. House is getting more organized everyday. I just can't keep up with my kids right now and they know it. The boot has slowed me down and I just keep on them like i need to. So around my birthday i should be bootless! yeah!
I have got to get off soda again. My body is mush. For me excersing and eating right go hand in hand. So i've decided this is the perfect oppurtunity to get my healthy eating habits back and when i do get back to the gym i can start firming up again. So no more soda as of tomorrow. I've done it so many times so i know that i can do it.
I'm really not ready for the week. Jace's homework is killing me. and he has been having to correct some school work to. He is struggling right now in school and i know it's because of him having a horrible third grade year with a sub most of the year. He needs to stop comparing himself to others and hayley. She effortlessly gets good grades and he doesn't understand why it's harder for him. I feel bad for him. I told him to just try his best that's all he can do. and to let his teacher know if he doesn't understand. he's embarassed to ask her.
So life is getting better. slowly but it is. we have some stuff going on right now that could really bring us down. but we just stay positive and know it will all work out for the best. If you are close to me you know but i don't want to put it out there on my blog. It's a sad situation and i hope it will be over soon.
This week is busy but what week isn't. On top of everything else i have to call the dentist because instead of getting my butt off the ground and getting a staple remover i used my teeth and broke a little piece of tooth off my front tooth. It's really little but i need to get it fixed. I also get to go get my yearly check up. I have another lump in my left breast this time. I'm sure it's more fabroids (not sure if i spelled it right) but want to make sure.
wow i'm sure getting personal right now.
well here is to a good week and i hope i can stay organized, be a good mom, good wife and good to myself.

Parker couldn't be happier!

Our little Parker is so excited for preschool! He will be four years old on September first so he is more than ready. He was excited to wear his new spiderman back pack. He keeps telling me he wants to grow up like daddy so i'm sure he feels more like a big boy now going to school like his brothers and sister.
When we got to school (it's at Mrs. Shannons house) he put his backpack in his cubby then we found his name on his desk. There was playdoh on the table so he had fun playing with it. Gave me a hug and off I went. He had a great day and he can't wait to go back again. Now for me. It was bitter sweet. I was alone for the first time without having to pay for a sitter. I ran some errands really fast then ended up going to Ross and finding some really cute stuff for the house. I found a frame I liked for a family photo I finally enlarged. It was a mirror though and was gold. So I painted it and took the mirror out. I love it! I think it turned out great. I also bought a really cute se of Halloween ceramic pumkin bowls. I don't know why I love Halloween so much whenever I first see the signs of Halloween in stores my heart starts beating hard and I get so excited. I love that time of year.
I'm feeling so good right now considering broken foot and attorney stuff. I haven't felt this happy in a long time. I feel yucky from not being able to work out but I'm getting a lot of other things on track in my life. I will just have to cycle off this tummy that has reappeared dang it.

Happy Birthday Carter!!

Carter turned 7 yrs old on August 6th. I can't believe he is seven and i'm sadden to think how time is flying by with him. He is such a sweetheart. He was the best baby, toddler, and little boy. He is going through a rough spot right now with his behavior but we have has some really good days lately. He is really into music and will be taking guitar lessons when we can afford to do it. He really needs his own thing and that is what he wants to do. You should see him rock out on guitar hero. He is the best in our family, he can play on expert. He is Parkers buddy and he really misses him when he is at school. I scored on his bday gift. I found a brand new rock band for him for 85 dollars on ebay. That is what he wanted so i'm glad i found it for half price and free shipping. We celebrated at grandma connies house. Make a wish!
This year i've started to alternate bday partys. Next year he will be 8 so he will have a big party. He is enjoying 1st grade and likes his friends. He is growing more independent everyday. I love Carters smile. It is the best!

hope it goes well...

Well i'm just waiting around to go to the foot dr. this morning. I hope it is good news and that my foot isn't worse than the urgent care dr thought. I'm just sick of limping around, hurting, not keeping up on my house, and most of working out at the gym. I miss it so bad. It makes me feel so good and its a great way to start my day. I hope to be there soon. In cycling class sweating my butt off. I'm eating so my junk and drinking so much soda. I'm bloated and feeling yuck. It doesn't help that we are dealing with some family issues and attorneys right now. I hate it.
I have the cutest idea how to paint/decorate hayleys bathroom and i can't wait to do it. I need to paint all the kids rooms and bathrooms. I have the paint just need to feel good enough to do. I was going to paint my bedroom but the color doesn't clash too bad with my bedding so it will be last on the list if i even do it. Just trying to get the main areas downstairs organized and decorated.
Carter got in trouble yesterday and had to go talk to Mr. Merrill (the principal). He actually really likes Carter and tells me how he is such a great kid. I'm sure he was shocked to see Carter in trouble. He didn't want to stop talking and wouldn't listen to his teacher. He ran out of the class and hid somewhere. GREAT! what a great way to start the new year. Luckily he has a sweet and understanding teacher. Hope today goes better. I did bribe him with extra wintergreen gum his favorite if he is good at school.

I want to try to blog about more of the day to day things not just important events or fun things we do. I'm excited to be back in the area, close to the school and friends. The kids are loving it. It is nice to see familiar faces at church too. Even though the ward has split into thirds since we moved there are people we know. I'm not happy that i got called to cub scouts again. That is the one calling i was praying that i wouldn't get. I want to cry when he asked me. But i'm going to give it a try. It's being the bear assistant so at least it isn't the leader this time. And jace is a bear so he is very excited.

Back to school

The kids are back to school. Yeah! We had a really good morning. I'm proud of them for waking up with no problem. Jace requested german pancakes so woke up a little early to make them. I can't believe school has already started. Carter is in first grade.Jace is in 4th grade.Hayley is in 6th grade. She got embarrassed when i took her picture in front of her friends.

This summer flew by. I hope they are having a good day. They were all excited to see their friends. I really need to get my house in order. I hurt my foot two weeks ago today and it is still hurting. I was cleaning my stove top and placed the cast iron burners on the counter. While i grabbed one to put it back the one behind it fail off the counter unto my right foot. It dropped me to the ground and I laid there and cried like a baby. It was one of those moments in life where once you start crying you cry and cry because you have to much stuff built up inside of you. The kids came running in and hayley said i scared her. It took me a little while to stop crying like a baby and tell them what happened. She got ice for me and they helped me get to the couch. What sweeties. Anyways i did fracture my foot. Dr. told me to ice it and to try to stay off of it. It's not much better so i went back four days ago. He told me to use heat on it now and prescribed me some medication for the swelling. Well today i called to make an appt with a foot specialist. I hope it's not screwed up more than the urgent care dr said it was. I need to be able to do some things around here. I miss going to the gym and i feel like mush. I didn't go for five days while moving, then we went out of town for 1 1/2 weeks went back one day thinking yeah i'm back this feels so good to hurting my foot the next day. Blah blah blah. life will go on. just need to get better. Can't wait to hear about the kids first day of school.

Utah trip

Life is just busy and everyday just flies by. at least for me. I'm having a hard time getting motivated to do much of anything. I feel bad for my kids because I should be planning things with friends and having fun with them, since there is only one week til school starts. I feel like they are growing up too quickly and slipping through my fingers. I need to change that and really put time into my kids like i use to. I just have felt so unsettled ever since we decided to put our home up for sale in 2006. It was on the market forever and we haven't been completely unpacked since. I hope to make this house our home and hopefully when we move again it will be into our own house again and have it be our last move.
I am so excited to be close to the school where i can walk the kids to school and i will just have them come home on there own. it's going to save so much time not having to drive them. We went to our kinda old ward again. There are a few people in the ward before it was split into thirds after we moved out last summer. so it was nice to see some familiar faces, the kids are back with friends they go to school with.
These last fews years i have really become interverted and i hate feeling this way. I keep getting burned by people I really open up to (well twice) and it really makes me guarded now. I really am fun to be around and can be a great friend. But i'm so done with one sided friendships. I didn't realize I was going to have a therapy session. ha.. well i really meant to blog on our first vacation in two years. We needed and deserved it!
We went to Utah to celebrate the 4th of July with my family. It was such a busy time since we finally got moved into this house the 29th and left for utah early on the 2nd.
My sister misty and her family go the keys to their new home the day we arrived so we helped them move over the past couple of days. We drank lots of red bull and got a lot done. I wish I could of done more but my family was ready to have some fun. We went swimming at spanish for highschool pool. It's like a mini water park. My kids always have fun playing in water! My dad had a bbq at his house later that day. The food was great and i loved hangning out with everyone. We did fireworks and enjoyed the company.

We were going to stay at my dads that night but learned that carter was allergic to their cats. So we went and stayed at a hotel for a couple of nights. monday we took the kids to bridal veil falls. it was beautiful!


We also went on a boat ride with Grandpa. It was quite the adventure.
On tuesday we went up to midway. We went to kamas (they have an indoor water park) with Chandlers cousin Jason and his family. We also visited with Kristine and her kids. The kids had a lot of fun playing at their clubhouse. On wednesday we decided to hike up timpanogos and take the kids on the cave tour. It was a tough hike but all the kids made it, even Parker.
I can't believe he did the hike on his own and made it about half way down before wanting to be carried. I love times like these that make our family grow stronger. It was definetly something that drew us closer together>
The kids were amazed at the beauty of the crystals. and that we walked through a real vault line.. We later went to the Mcknights who let us stay the night with them.


They have a horse and we had fun riding it. Misty and I had a girls night. We went shopping and i helped her find some really cute new clothes. I love my little sister! I wish we lived closer. I love this pic of us, not sure why I look Asian? We all went to see Grandma Hacking. It is always good to see her. She is such a sweet heart. I hope to see her again next year. She just turned 94yrs old. I think she looks a lot younger.So that was our trip. I can't believe we did all of that! Thanks to everyone for letting us stay with you! It was an awesome trip!

End of the School Year wrap up.

Well we survived another school year. School actually ended on June 3rd but as you can see i'm behind in my blogging life. Carter is a first grader now! It's wierd to think he could be in 2nd grade if I didn't have him start right when he turned five. He really didn't learn anything new but his self confidence is so much higher than when he started. He's still shy but not as much. He did such a good job in his star program. (graduation). I just love his smile!
Jace had his rain forest cafe. They have to make a life like animal and write a report on it. I got an A. Ha. He had the frilled lizard. He is so silly around his friends. He will be in 4th grade and hopefully get the teacher I requested for him.
Finally Hayley had to type out a ten page report on Hawaii. and make a brochure. She did such a great job. Everyone in her class had to pick a state and make a food that represents their state. It was a lot of fun and there was a lot of yummy food. Can you believe she will be in 6th grade! I have to add a picture of my underwear boy. And yes they are clean :).

hi

i will blog soon. i promise promise promise. By the way only 4.4 pounds left tell i hit my goal. FINALLY!!!!! I hope i can maintain when i'm in utah for the 4th of july. check back!!!

whats going on

I'm so excited that it is getting hot here because that means that we are closer to moving back to our old neighborhood. We are all very excited, especially the kids. They miss being close to there friends and i'm sick of driving them back and forth, back and forth. It will be so good for all of us. I will be closer to some of my old ward friends which just makes life so much easier when you live close by. Things change when you move, it just isn't as convenient. I'm so busy and days are just a big blur. I just helped jace make a Frilled Lizard out of mold magic (it didn't work as great as i thought) It looks good though but we still need to paint it and finish his report. Hayley has a huge project she is working on about Hawaii. I'm so lucky to have a child that is so responsible with her school work. Hayley did awesome at her dance competition. They took second place in all their dances. She loves it. We had 3 extra practices a week for the last month on top of her 3 regular practices. So yeah it's over. She has a huge recital on May 30th. I will love saving the money i spend on dance since she is taking a break over the summer.
So what have i've been up to.
1. Working out daily again. LOVE IT AND FEELING GREAT!
2. Eating super healthy and having a lot of cravings for all the junk that i like to eat. I signed up for this program though that makes you log everything you eat.
3. If I keep this up (i promise i will) i will hit my goal June 23rd.
4. Packing packing and yeah more packing. Instead of panicking about this i've already started.
5. I will finally be having my varicose vein surgery on May 22nd. I can't wait!
6. I want boobies. ha ha ( i hope to be up to this in the near future) it consumes my mind too much during the day.
7. Just trying to be positive and happy. We are being so blessed right now.
8. I made my niece Caylin some headbands for her ist birthday. I miss her.
9. I signed Parker up for next school years preschool. starts august 7th. After the day i had with him it will be nice to have a break. He is usually good but he has been a handful lately. boredom.

I'm so happy friends are reading my blog again. It makes me feel oh so special!

Hayley

Hayley and I went to the orthodontics today. She will be getting braces as soon as her last baby tooth falls out which it's already a little wiggely. She is acting like it sucks but i know she secretly wants them. When you are a preteen you think that they are cool. I can't believe she has lost almost all of her teeth. I can't believe I got a little emotional about it. On our way to school she reminded me that i told her in 6th grade she can wear mascara. I told her I would think about it. When we made that deal she was in 2nd grade I think. She is in such a hurry to grow up. I'm not ready for it. She is such a huge help to me. Most of the time. She offered to watch Carter and Parker this evening while I take Jace to the Pit. So that is what we are going to start doing every wednesday. Parker and Carter are out of control there so this will help a lot! Hayley has a huge dance compition this weekend. She is such a great hip hop dancer. She has a group dance then she has a special trio number. The teacher pics the best three and they get to do a special performance. She has had so many extra practices so i can't wait for it to be over. I find so much joy in her dancing. I will admit that i'm living through her. By the way the pink hair is fake. That was a comprimise. She wore them to freak her grandma connie out and grandma ended up liking them!

? umm yeah i'm brain dead

I really like to blog with pictures but the computer isn't recognizing my camera for some reason! I've tried downloading the driver again and it keeps saying error. I'm so frustrated. So i will blog for now with no pictures. I will have to go get my pics burned onto a cd for now. then i will add pics later.
The kids are back in school after a 2 1/2 week break. At the begining of every break i'm so happy they are on break. then towards the end they are soooo bored and driving me crazy. and our schedule gets so off. I can hardly keep up with things around here. So yeah they are back in school and we are back into the swing of things.
We didn't do too much. I miss the days of going to san diego or L.A. for spring break. I did take the kids to see bolt all by myself. Everyone was so good and Parker watched the whole movie. Carter started to cry during the fire scene where bolt and the girl pass out. he is my tender hearted son. Jace and Carter did some MX riding. We took the kids to the skateboard park. Hayley had a few sleepovers with friends and went swimming at basha pool. I tried to stay sane. the gym is my outlet but i'm spining my wheels trying to lose the last bit of weight from Parker. Oh yeah i went to an consult appt for something i'm really excited but scared about.
We went for a picnic and hike by the salt river. it was so beautiful. This was our first family hike and it was a lot of fun. We saw a few lizards and Jace found a tiny bat hanging upside down in a rock.
Today I finally did something that i wanted to do. i told myself i wasn't going to the gym today. i work out six days a week and my body really needs a break. soo i ended up staying in my pjs and scrapbooked. i am so behind but i'm determined to get caught up. i managed to do 6 12by 12 pages and plan on doing more tonight. well maybe not surviver is on in 10 minutes. while i was scrapbooking Parker came up to me with two bloody hands. I started shaking ( i hate blood seeing blood on my kids) washed his hand and found that the cut was only on one finger. at the crease of his right pointer finger. he cut it with the measuring tape. so i have a greasy head, pale blotchy face and in my pjs. Jace was home from school today sick so i had him watch parker and tried to look a little less white trash. Parker was a trooper. he was lucky that they were able to use glue instead of stitches to fix his finger.
Chandler has been busy with work so there is light at the end of the tunnel with the hard last year we have had. We are receiving so many blessings. pictures will be added soon.

um yeah. an update!

Why oh why do I let myself get behind a whole month in the blogging world! Where to start. Hayley turned 11years old on January 29th. I heart attacked her room while she was at school. She loved it. She is such an amazing girl. love her. she was the sweetest baby. She decided to start my labor while i was shopping with my sister misty. I told misty i feel like there is a huge hole in my crotch. So i drove myself to the hospital. On the way I stopped and grabbed a grilled ham and cheese sandwhich because I knew you aren't able to eat if your admitted and I was starving. So they kept me and said to call Chandler. She was born 6 hrs later. My beautiful princess. 6lbs 5oz. Perfect in everyway. Hayley was always in a hurry to grow up from the start. Crawling at 6months. walking by 8 months. decided she wanted to go potty on the toilet at 18months. She is was so easy and pretty much still is. She had 10 girls over for a sleepover party. They had fun singing and dancing.

I learned not to put candles in hot peach cobbler. duh. they melted!
I feel bad because i became a mean mom about 1am. They were still loud and crazy and it echoed upstairs. I kept texting hayley be quiet. I still feel bad about being like that.
Jace finished flag football and is excited to spend saturdays at the motocross track again. He misses it. He loves sports though. He did awesome at flagfootball. He likes to dive for peoples flags even if it means knocking them over. and yes he did get some penalties for it. he also caught some awesome long passes. It was fun seeing the cousins playing on the same team together. Carter is riding his motorcycle too. That's his only hobby right now. that and rocking out to guitar hero.
I just tried downloading my pics and it's not working!! so frustrating.
i've been going through some crap lately so i have been doing some emotional eating and gaining some of the weight that i have worked so hard to lose! but i'm doing better this week. i actually cut soda out again. today was my first no soda day and it has been tough! i miss diet dr. pepper.yum . but i know it has been making me feel like crap and making me bloat like i'm prego. not a good feeling. I was able to go on Jace's field trip this week. It's fun hanging out with him and sitting with him and a buddy on the bus.
Chandlers birthday is coming up and i have no idea what to do for him. I better think fast.

HIP HOP HAYLEY

Things have been busier than usual around here. Hayley performed in Phoenix twice in the last week. She first dance before the Globetrotters game. She had practice before the performance in a back court where the Phoenix Suns practice. Well while they were practicing their dance Steve Nash came walkling in talking on his cell phone. He watched them practice then took a picture with them. He put his hand on Hayleys shoulder. She knew who he was a couldn't stop talking about it all the way home. They watched him shoot some hoops too. She did really well in her performance. She loves it and has an amazing teacher.

Six days later she opened for the Suns game. It's alway fun watching her dance. I'm living through my child. I always wanted to take dance. I love it.


Jace got his cast off on friday! He is still limping because he is use to his leg being heavy.

Hayley will be 11 yrs old on the 29th and is having a sleepover party. I'm making peach cobbler instead of a cake. I hope everyone has a fun time. I always worry about that. i want everyone to have a great time. I don't want my kids to have a lame-o pparty.

I'm still hitting the gym six times a week and i feel great! I have about 5 more pound to go then to just maintain. I'm the strongest i have ever been in my life and the best shape i can be in after having lots of babies.